It Was Beautiful, Then (#latervision)

It was beautiful / It is beautiful

Time eventually gave up
and slipped away
Our skin grew light and transparent, dissolving
Two beings intertwined energetically
No backwards no forwards
Just.

Being.  With you,
I felt drunk, intoxicated
Yet I was 20 days sober,
and with that clarity rang an all-knowing vision, intuition
Our past, our future - lives lined up like books on a shelf -
We knew the words of the stories, without reading a damn thing

"But I love to read!  That's my thing!" I say, and
We both laugh
I let my head fall back and my hair sway as I hold my arms
Together around your neck, safe and secure in the perch of your lap

It is beautiful.  This. Is.

And I am happy.
And I am grateful.

And I am healing,
And I am almost
Ready.

So You Will Have Faith In Me

so you will have faith in me

so you have faith in me

i will wear my battle scars as beauty marks

i will kiss every enemy good night on the forehead

i will clean my house with intention, clarify with wisdom and sage

i will bend in the places that are frozen, open to feel the wounds of cracked bones and torn flesh

i will love suffering and treat her as a child that needs to be held, 

cared for, as i was

never

safely held, 

Until you, 

Returned.