did it always work this way? centuries ago, was the pressure the same?
when did the word Labor become synonymous with the idea of just going out and doing things?
i guess it's just part of the process, part of the becoming ______. well, maybe it has more to do with an audience. when your audience becomes a list of people with names you don't recognize, and the pressure of ownership/responsibility to history and the push for something more, insight (the kind not tucked into ad campaigns or magazine articles), becomes a weight, one that is light as a feather and stiff as a board...
well, that's when you leave the computer and turn of the tv.
from a movie i just watched: "he just pulled out a gun. it's not like he even fought in a war."
last line, before changing the channel: "i try not to want what i don't have."